I Need Blood Instead Of Tears


A complete blood count (CBC) is a blood test used to evaluate your overall health and detect a wide range of disorders, including anemia, infection and leukemia.

A complete blood count test measures several components and features of your blood, including:

  • Red blood cells, which carry oxygen
  • White blood cells, which fight infection
  • Hemoglobin, the oxygen-carrying protein in red blood cells
  • Hematocrit, the proportion of red blood cells to the fluid component, or plasma, in your blood
  • Platelets, which help with blood clotting

Why it’s done

A complete blood count is a common blood test that’s done for a variety of reasons:

  • To review your overall health. Your doctor may recommend a complete blood count as part of a routine medical examination to monitor your general health and to screen for a variety of disorders, such as anemia or leukemia.
  • To diagnose a medical condition. Your doctor may suggest a complete blood count if you’re experiencing weakness, fatigue, fever, inflammation, bruising or bleeding. A complete blood count may help diagnose the cause of these signs and symptoms. If your doctor suspects you have an infection, the test can also help confirm that diagnosis.
  • To monitor a medical condition. If you’ve been diagnosed with a blood disorder that affects blood cell counts, your doctor may use complete blood counts to monitor your condition.
  • To monitor medical treatment. A complete blood count may be used to monitor your health if you’re taking medications that may affect blood cell counts.

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The following are normal complete blood count results for adults:Red blood cell count

Male: 4.35-5.65 trillion cells/L*
(4.35-5.65 million cells/mcL**)

Female: 3.92-5.13 trillion cells/L
(3.92-5.13 million cells/mcL)Hemoglobin

Male: 13.2-16.6 grams/dL***
(132-166 grams/L)

Female: 11.6-15 grams/dL
(116-150 grams/L)Hematocrit

Male: 38.3-48.6 percent

Female: 35.5-44.9 percentWhite blood cell count

3.4-9.6 billion cells/L
(3,400 to 9,600 cells/mcL)Platelet count

Male: 135-317 billion/L
(135,000 to 317,000/mcL)

Female: 157-371 billion/L
(157,000 to 371,000/mcL)

  • * L = liter
  • ** mcL = microliter
  • *** dL = deciliter


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Israel launched new airstrikes into Gaza on Tuesday, leveling an evacuated 13-story residential building, while “hundreds” of rockets from Palestinian militants reportedly hit southern Israel and extended the violence to Tel Aviv, according to CNN. Since Monday, at least 28 Palestinians — including ten children — have been killed, say Palestinian officials, and at least 3 Israeli women were also killed in the first Israeli deaths in this current standoff.Photo via @AFP

Lal Dedi

Goran vonnum Aqui watctun

Nebr,e Dopnum Ander Autctun

Sui Lal,e goam vakh Ti Vatctun

Ad,e Lal,e heotuy Nangay natctun

#Lal Ded

گورن ونُنم اکوئی وژُن ۔۔نئبرء دپُنم اندر اژُن سوئی للہ گئوم واکھ وژُن ۔۔ ادی للہ ہئوتنئی ننگئ نژُ ن

Rehman Dar

​Rahman Dar (d.1897) is best-known for his mystical poem, Sheshrang,he lived at  Safa-kadal Dana mazar Srinagar, the subject of many a critical debates and widely considered to be one of the best mystical poems written in Kashmir. Rahman Dar belongs to a resurgence of Sufi poetry around the late nineteenth century and early twentieth century Kashmir which includes poets like Shams Faqir ,Neami Seab, Rahim Seab sopore. Like Shamas Faqir Neami seab, Rahman Dar lived and worked in one of the most challenging and difficult times for Kashmir. There is much controversy about the date of Rahman Dar’s death. Bashar Bashir has contested 1897 as the date of Rahman Dar’s death. Rahman Dar was a practicing Sufi and had been initiated into either Kubrawiyya or Qadri Sufi Orders. وچھم نا کانہہ وفا دار مے ژہانجوم سور سمسار—— وچھم نا کانہہ وفا دارو لیکن اکھ خدا یار——— وچھم نا کانہہ وفا دارمے ژہانجوم ہنہ ہنے——— پننے یتھ ماز بنےعناَصِر اَنتہ وَنَے———– تِمن نو کُنھہ چھُ مِلژارمے ژہانجوم اُندرٕ نیبَر——– سٕتی هیتھ پیر رهبردوپُم تَمی وایہ موبَر——— سٓرَ کَر تن ژٍ اغیارروحس نے کھیون نے چونے—– نہ گنڈن نہ چھا ونےسہ لا چھ بس ونے———- سیٹھآ نفس چھ بیزارگژھیم یلہ روح نیرِتھ——— ھیچاو ناویتہ راَوِتھمے نوکینھہ ام درکار——————– کتھا ونی رحمانن———– زانہ ونی مانہ زانن چھنا پَژھ غاَر زانَنچھُ صاحب بخشن هار Not one did I see faithful I searched the whole samsara (world)Not one did I see faithfulBut for you, my God, true friendNot one did I see faithfulI searched for you everywhere I searched for you in this massBring together your sensesAnd see they have nothing in commonNo point of originI searched you within and outsideI searched you with my teacher and guideHe said, don’t despairYou must get to know the strangerThe soul has no need to eat or drinkTo either hold or let goOnly the No enduresAnd the self is in despair Nothing was of use to meRahman has said what he had to sayAnd those they say know shall knowAnd if those who do not know have no faith in thisGod forgives… HAZRAT REHMAN DAR SAEB (ALIHE REHMA)**RAHMAN DAR’us OS SIL’SILAI KUBRAV’EE.,MOSHOOR SUFI SHAIR QADIR SAEB KEHNAI OS RAHMAN DARUN TAELIB, QADIR SAEBUN TALIB OS WOST’E HABIB(WAGUR) TE WOSTE KHALIQ(BATAMAL’NEN).YEMUN DOSHVINI NISH OS SAMAD MIRAN TARBIYAT HECH’MECH, SAMAD MIR’US PATEH TCHU YE SILSIL’H WUNISTAAM BARABAR CHALAAN.AMIH LANJI HIND SAELKAN MUTALIQ TCHU YE WANUN MUNASIB ZE YEMAV MANZ WOST HABIB TE WOST KHALIQS WARAI SARVI GOVHMUT.Samad Mir’us pateh kaer tehind zith talib ahad beigh’un te shay’ri te guleh mir’un yus ‘aazi’ takhalus karaan os..Waenh tchui amih lanJi manz Samad mir’un nechov sund nechov te shayri karaan..Rahman dar os tcha’chebal’uk baskeen te ye tchu dana mazaar dafan, aemsund nechov habib dar te os shair, .• Hajni saebun tchu Rahman dar’un marnuk sanh 1900 leukhmut, te awhaal naamus manz tchu amsindh marnuk sanh 1897 darij aamut karnh, yus dr’asal DAR saebnis nechov sund marnuk sanh tchu,Myaane tahkeek mujoob tchu Rahman dar saeban 1873 to 1875 drmiyaan yemih duniya drameth.Rahman dar saebn Kabri loan 1981 manz cultural academy peur!

​The Run AwayThe Start Of A New Journey

Dani finally shows up with her mom in the car.

She gets out a looks at me in need of words to say.

We run up to each other and hug tight, and start crying.

“Hi” We say in unison, after a few seconds, then start laughing.

“Come on, my mom said she’ll drive us to where ever it is we’re going… by the way, where are we going?”

“Where ever the light leads us” I say smiling.

“What about we go to Florida and work our way over to California?”


I look over at the car and Mrs.Michelson is looking over at us.

I wave into the car and say hello, and thank you.

I put my things in the trunk and get in the car.

“Alright mom! We decided we’re going to Florida then we’re going to get on the train and go to California, okay?”

“Alright sweetie but, you’re definitely sure you want to go? I just want to make sure before I take you guys.”

“We’re sure” Dani says with the biggest smile I’ve ever seen. “Wouldn’t you want to go on a road trip of a lifetime with your best friend, mom?”

“Yeah I would…. OKAY GIRLS! Strap your seat belts, ’cause we’re going to Florida!”


At least half way there we have to check into a motel then start again in the morning.

While we’re checking in I see Dani talking to two REEEEAALLYY cute guys.

She tells them hold on then comes toward me and says they want to meet me.

I put my stuff down at the check in desk and follow her.

“Ash, this is Markus and Hunter…. Markus, Hunter, this is Ashley”

“Hello there beautiful.” Hunter says with a smile.

Then Markus says, “What’s shakin’, bacon’?”

I blush and can feel my face turn red, and giggle.

“Hi” I say shyly, with my head faced towards the ground so they can’t see my, probably red as hell, face.

Entry 128: Nothing Could Kill Me Like You Do

I know that no one on this rock knows me better than you so I’m pretty sure you are expecting this, probably waiting for it, and if you hate me well, I’ll just take the hate.

You know I truly had no intention of ever writing to you.

I actually dreamt of you 3 or 4 nights ago.

It was amazing.

I wasn’t searching for you.

None of your features were blurred.

It was your smiling face and amazing blue eyes.

We weren’t fighting.

We weren’t hiding from anyone.

You didn’t reject me.

We spent a lot of time just snuggling together smiling and me hiding my face in your chest.

It wasn’t some steamy porno dream (damnit) but we did at some point find each other but there was nothing rushed or phony about it.

I felt happy, loved, and peaceful.

It was amazing.

I woke up feeling less heavy than I have in a long time.

I took it as a sign that my soul was finally accepting the fact that it had to go on without you and that I needed to accept it now also.

So I did.

And now this.

Not even 72 hours later and I’m sitting here with tears streaming down my face, mascara smeared, broken (again), hurting, not breathing, wondering why the fuck I am so fucking stupid?!?!?!?!?!?!?

I should have listened to my soul when it was screaming at me to ignore you no matter how hard it was.

But I didn’t.

I’m a fucking idiot.

I’m weak when it comes to your love.

I will fall for it everytime.

I still believe in it. (hey I already said I was an idiot ok sorry)

I think I will want to believe in it forever. Why wouldn’t I? I spent years of my life believing it. I truly saw myself believing in it for an eternity.

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

You still don’t want to admit to anyone close to you that I mean something to you.

You don’t want any of them to know that you care about me.

So who are you lying to?



You must really be lying to someone to go out of your way to make it a point to tell me you’d regret it because I would blog/Facebook/tell people.

Who would I tell?

I guess the bigger question is who would you NOT tell?

And if they mean so fucking much to you then why continue to fuck with me?

Why pretend like you love me and want to start over if it’s all just fucking bullshit?!?!?!?!?

I don’t think I will ever understand how you could say that you shared the love that I had for you when you over and over again you hurt/break/tear me down? If you had the love that I have/had there would be no way that you would ever want to hurt or see me hurt the way that you have.

I started this last night.

As we were arguing via text.

Before you text me and called me.
Before we spent time just being US.

Before we laughed as we tried to remember why we were fighting in the first place and then spent time trying to figure out why we started fighting in the first place.

Before we spent time just talking to each other, not yelling/fighting/crying(well a little bit of crying, it’s me duh)/hanging up on each other/blaming/denying.

I miss that so bad.

I miss the way that whatever we are doing it just flows, there is no awkwardness, everything smoothly transitions into the next. I’m happy that there was very little lovey dovey mushy gushy stuff. It was simply just US.

I missed the way you make me laugh.

I missed looking up to see your smile and blue eyes looking back at me.


I’m sure it was a mistake.

I’m sure you really aren’t going to change.

I’m sure no one knows that you are talking to me.

I’m sure that you’d deny deny deny that any of the above happened.

I’m sure that I haven’t crossed your mind today.

I’m sure that I could keep calling for days and if you weren’t by yourself then you wouldn’t respond or aknowledge me.

And I am requiring more of that from people that I allow into my life.
I seriously miss you.

Thanks for destroying me.
I took my poison and its you

Nothing could kill me like you do.